friday, july 1st...d day

My doctor set my induction date today - Friday, July 1st @ 7:30am. I realllllyyyy hope she decides to stop being so stubborn and come out before Friday though! I am pretty bummed out about having to be induced, but we don't want the placenta to start to break down and not provide her the proper nutrients, or her becoming stressed out. Today at the DR he did an ultrasound, and everything looked good. The U/S tech said according to measurements she weighs about 8lbs 6oz! She also said that sometimes this is off by a pound or so. Where in the heck is she hiding in there?? I really haven't gotten that much bigger since 32 weeks or so. It's crazy knowing there is a full sized baby in there!! It's crazy thinking these are the last two days I'll be a kid free woman, and my life after Friday is going to be completely different, and never be what it use to be. I plan on enjoying the next two days pool side at my mom's. Tomorrow I plan on doing a lot of swimming, and anything else I can think of to hopefully get her out of there!!

Knowing what I did after the doctor I decided to make sure I was stocked on toilet paper, shampoo, conditioner, and all that good stuff. I went to meijer for THREE things, and left after spending $80.00. I'm pretty good at doing that! Then I came home and realized I don't have any nursing bras and I've been told by a few different friends that I would probably want one in the hospital, but, OMG, nursing bras are so hideous and unflattering! I was able to find 2 that didn't seem so bad though at motherhood maternity, we'll see how those work, and if I really do even like them. I just hope I have everything! Then again a lot of people have also told me that newborns really don't need all that much, the most important thing that they need of course is their mommy, and a lot of love!

true blood series premiere or my daughter?

Which one will come first??? The TB season starts Sunday June 26th. Hayden's original due date was June 25th estimated off of my estimated LMP. The doctor changed it when I was 28 weeks...why? I have no idea. I thought it was kind of dumb to change it by only 10 days, and I think that is where my frustration has came in, because now it seems as if I am past my due date when really I may not really be. Who knows. I've pretty much just accepted the fact that she'll come when she is ready, and I have honestly just stopped stressing over it, not that I was really stressing over it, but I was kinda of becoming obsessed by it.

So, the NST was of course fine at the DR today. I'm FINALLY dilating, yay. He said the babies head is pretty far down there, so he really thinks that I'll be able to go into labor and progress normally with no problems. This was one thing I have been worried about because my mom has two uterus', and when she is pregnant the baby does not drop into her pelvis, and she doesn't dilate much past 2cm, so she has to have c-sections, as she did with my brother and I. My DR told me from the get go that it didn't mean I would be like that too. The only thing was, was she did not know she had two uterus' until after she gave birth to me, she said they could never see it on an U/S, but technology has come a long way in 30 years 25 years, so I would hope that would be something they would see on an U/S these days, and the U/S tech at my doctor's office is pretty awesome, and knows her stuff!

After the doctors appt I figured it was probably about time to go get last minute stuff at Babies 'R' Us, like my boppy, and stock up on some more groceries. I did what I thought would be my last grocery trip before baby over a week ago, but no. Now when I look at the exp date on things like the milk I always think, oh she should be here before then. Yeah, well this gallon doesn't exp until 7/6, and she'll DEFINITELY be here by then. I thought for sure it was going to be sooner though, oh well...more summer vacation for me! It could be worse, I could be the size of a whale, uncomfortable, and miserable. There is this one lady who must be as far as I am, because I see her at most of my DR appointments now, and her belly IS HUGE! I don't know what I would do if mine was that big. She couldn't even sit down without looking TOTALLY uncomfortable. Poor girl! So, instead of complaining because my baby is taking a little longer to make her debut, I'll just shut my mouth and be grateful I'm still tiny, happy, and have a lil monkey who is obviously very healthy and happy in there!!!

they are seriously starting to scare me...

The whole time I have been pregnant I have been a member on a baby forum, and been part of the June 2011 birth club. I'm not sure if it is just because people are so close to their due dates, and they have just lost their mind, and all common sense, or if they're really just that stupid! I don't even go on and read it as much anymore, because I swear the posts get worse every day! Lets go over some of the topics in the past few days, shall we?

"My husband is going to eat my placenta after birth." - ok, gross. And when the topic of eating the placenta is mentioned it is usually talked about because of how good it is suppose to be for mom, and supposedly help with PPD, not because it is so delicious, and goes great with coffee the morning after you give birth. I don't care how good that thing is for me, it is going no where NEAR my mouth, and if my husband wanted to eat my placenta I would be concerned about his mental health.

"I stopped taking my prenatals at 36 weeks, and now I am scared my baby will be brain dead." - No comment.

"I've been hearing a lot of people talk about how the full moon makes women go into labor. How does it exactly work? Am I to go outside and stand in the moon light for a certain amount of time? Should I stand, sit, or lay in the direct moon light?" - Seriously? Yep, and don't forget to do the special moon dance, bare foot, while wearing sunglasses.

"When I do my own cervix checks I feel empowered. Anyone else?" - How the hell is this empowering?? You have your fingers stuck up your vagina, and most likely have NO IDEA what you're even feeling for, or what any of it means. You should feel ridiculous.

"My husband checked my cervix tonight, and touched the baby's head." - I'm pretty sure he didn't actually TOUCH your baby's HEAD. And I'm pretty sure your husband or anyone should be all up there feeling around.

"My BF proposed to me tonight. What should I say??" - You're really asking a bunch of strangers what you should say to your BF's proposal, and this doesn't raise any red flags for you?!?! Oh yeah, and you're an ass, because you obviously must have told him - I don't know????

"need a quick decnet paying career , to get away from this Ahole. hi,just trying to figure out a decent paying type carrer that also sort of icto get into .my husband is verbally and sometime phyiscaly abusive jackass." - No, you need an education. Leave the POS, stop making babies, and go back to school. I couldn't read anymore after that because it made my brain hurt. ..::face palm::..

"My doctor told me I have a; narrow pelvis, short cervix, unfavorable cervix, anterior placenta, etc. What does that mean?" - So, when your doctor told you this and you didn't know what it meant, your first reaction was not to ask him - "What does that mean?" Instead it was - "When I get home I'll go on my birth club and ask a bunch of women who most likely are NOT doctors, or in the medical field." Totally makes sense to me!

"How do I find out if my induction is still schedule for tomorrow" - Hmmmmm, gee, I don't know..maybe call your doctor, or hospital??????? Just a crazy thought.

"Past my due date and baby not moving a lot. Very concerned!!" - You're so concerned that instead of calling your DR or hospital, you're on a pregnancy forum posting to a bunch of random women about how concerned you are for your baby? Got it.

And these people are reproducing?!?! I hope for my daughters sake that her generation isn't as stupid and idiotic as their parent/s are.

maybe she changed her mind?

So, last night I thought for sure she was going to be on her way out. I started having contractions around 12:30am, and by 2am they were pretty painful. Sometimes they would be in my back and sometimes in my pelvis area, and they HURT! I couldn't time them though so I knew it wasn't the real thing just yet, but I was hoping they would turn into the "real" thing. Sometimes they were back to back contractions and sometimes I had about 5 or 6 minutes in between. I was lying in bed thinking, should I get up and pack my bag?? (yeah, I haven't packed my bag yet). Then I was thinking, what am I going to do about the dogs? The last thing I remember is having a pretty painful contraction at 4:11am. I had a few this morning at 9am that were slightly painful, but not like the ones from last night.

I get to my doctor appt today, and they tell me he isn't there. Okay, can you tell me why I am here then???? Well, the nurses are able to do the NST (non-stress tests), so they at least did that. It seemed fine to me, just like the others. Heartbeat stayed within the 150 area, and she moved quite a few times within the 20 minute test. So, now I have to go tomorrow to see the actual doctor. How nice. Apparently they think that pregnant women have no other life at this point, except going to the doctor...well, I have news for them..........they are kinda right. *sigh*

So, the full moon is tomorrow. Maybe it'll make me go into real labor like people say it does. I wouldn't be mad if the moon's gravitational pull made my water break. I have talked to a couple of L&D nurses and they say that a lot of hospitals do staff more on full moons because of this reason. Who knows? Or maybe I have a summer solstice baby on the 21st? That would be kinda cool too.

Seems like it was just yesterday...

In a way this pregnancy has gone by very quickly, while at other times it seems to be dragging (like now!). It feels like it was just a few months ago I was at the bar watching my hubby throw 4 picks to DeAngelo Hall, one in which turned out to be the game winning touchdown for the Redskins, and not having ONE drink! And Cutler had me so stressed I could have definitely used one!

Everyone thought I was hungover from the night before, but just the thought of alcohol grossed me out. That and my my boobs hurt SO SO SO bad, like I never thought boobs could ever be THAT sore. Once the game was over, I was pissed, and ready to take my ball and stomp my feet all the way back home...not before I stopped to get a pregnancy test first, because something definitely didn't feel right! (oh, and a pumpkin, and stencil/carving kit).

Now, here I am 9 months pregnant, and feeling like she is never going to come out of there! I've had pretty much a picture perfect pregnancy except for a stupid kidney infection that put me in the hospital for 3 days. It's like okay, not EVERYTHING can be perfect! I'm pretty sure this is a normal feeling, as all the crazy ass nice women on my June birth board I read through pretty much everyday seem to be feeling the same way. So here I am sitting here, waiting on the princess to arrive who will be totally dependent upon me, and my life as I know it now will never ever be the same, and I'm totally okay with that.